It has been a tumultuous 3 months. And by tumultuous, I don't mean its necessarily all bad. There are new issues that have to be settled on which never cropped up during our dating days. And then there are the more sensitive issues, which I'd rather not pen down.

It all began with the internet as the tool that brought us together.

During the first three months of our dating days, our concerns were, 'Will he like it if I wear a dress?' or, 'Would she prefer me to bring her to Newton or Fish and Co?' 'Should we go to the movies, or just a trip to the beach?' This seemed major decisions to make then, as we always wanted our days out to be the best it can be everytime (due to his shift work then, which made it fairly difficult for us to meet). We do feel the tinge of need to impress each other, (kata new couple kan), so I'll wreck my wardrobe (and my brains) everytime before a date with him, to which I found out that he wasn't exactly generous with his compliments, which psyched me out!

As the year progresses, it came down to being serious and committed. I have always believed that when a man is ready, he will, on his own will, express it himself. I have never been the type to 'pressure' her man into commitment, like many girls are doing nowadays. I have seen the complications that was brought upon cases where girls go, 'Sayang....my parents dah tanyer bila u nak masuk meminang...' and all the woes that came along the way.

So, he proposed, and, despite being disappointed before, he took the risk to go on an engagement with me for approximately 2 and a half years. And in that span of time, I never held back anything as I showed him who I really was, tempers, farts and all, as I thought, why be a hypocrite if I was going to spend the rest of my life with this man?

And alhamdulillah, we proved that we were strong enough to move on to the life commitment, and here we are, into our 3rd wedding monthsary. It's still very new, and we are expecting changes and new things coming along our way. Bigger decisions to be made, bigger responsibilities still. But as the day goes by, one thing that doesn't change, if not more, is our love for each other. As the day goes by, I have never been more assured that I have made the right decision to commit my life to this wonderful man named 'Yazid', my husband.

Happy 3rd wedding monthsary dear love. Looking forward to forever with you.

And she waves goodbye...

12:00 am