I thought I was gonna lose him yesterday.

I already lost one earlier because of this matter, and I won't be able to take it if I were to lose another because of the same reason. It just doesn't justify me, nor him. What, can't I have friends just coz of my status? Have I lost that right? It's so totally unfair if it were to happen again. I was already in the state of despair of having to accept that I will never again talk to him and act total strangers with each other. No...not again. One is more than enough.

But it brightened up again when he convinced me that I will not lose him and we'll be there for each other always. But I'm not so convinced as yet ... he is feeling very confused now, and I hope that he will accept the fact.

I really can't lose another, for if I do lose him, I will swear off friends forever.

And she waves goodbye...

1:31 am