Before, it'll be me stepping into a brightly lit home after a day's work, one on the PC and one on the sofa watching tv, greeted by hi's and smiles. What a place to get home to.

Now, it's gonna be all dark, all in the end room watching tv. Making the house dull and no life. The big tv with all the stereo speakers and what have you are like no longer in use, except when I get home. And utilise it alone.

It really bothers me.

That's why nowadays i prefer to be out, where I know I will be where I wanna be, eat what I wanna eat. I just don't seem to feel welcome anymore..it's just so different. No more smiles from her, all cold shoulder. Yah, I know it's my fault for spending little time at home, but I wanna do what I have to before I get tied down forever. I wanna enjoy my youth while I can, and not look back and think, 'just what did i do in the past? i should have done this, i should have done that...' I wanna accomplish as many things as I can, do things that are doable while I am still young. Pursue my passion as high as I can go. I dun wanna regret later, like how she would sumtymes tell us. .

I dunno..i just wanna fly...

And she waves goodbye...

12:25 pm